in school now that's why i can use com..but onli for 1 period-> 1/2 an hour.. my blog's goanna die till PSLE's over.. then i can use the com like siao... yeah.. but till then, 10 days time or so..i know got Gospel Service this Sunday.. but i'm really scared to invite my friends.. i know i'm goanna fail God this time round unless a miracle really happens.. =(

hey! my tag-board's gone..kae got the letter from Sports School..sae got accecpted. only need to send letter of confirmation back. ha should i go? i would go if it's God's will for me. all i want is God's will..

yeah..have to make this one a fast post.. lots of things been goin on here.. sunday nite to Tue nite every nite went to my uncles house to help out.. today was cremation dae.. was quite sad..don't know where his soul is.. anywae, learning stuff from the devotional experiencing God..

that nite was Sat nite, receiveed a call at like 12.15.. heard my mum's hp ringing.. ran to her bedroom to get it.. ran to the hall to pass to her.. who was that at such a late hour? heard her say something like grandpa..and Changi hospital.. put two and two together is like he's there.. Thank God my dad had u.Philip's car so not so bad... my mum asked all of us to go sleep early and pray.. my sis was doing her work on com.. and i was like quite distracted.. went to my room.. shut and locked the door.. begged with God to save my gong gong or at least let him live.. i think that was the only time i ever prayed so hard.. "cried" myself to sleep.. next morning woke up, found dad in bed.. mum was not there. ask dad what happened.he said gong gong passed away.. i didn't know what to do.. "in a state of shock"so went to church.. worshipping God also hard.. found myself thinking of gong gong..Not i but Christ spoke to my heart.. not i but Christ to gently sooth in sorrow, not i but Christ to wipe the falling tear.. that was all for Sunday...oh ya.. couldn't go for singing in church too..anywae this week has been a busy week for me.. i know gong gong's not coming back.. maybe i'll see him in heaven somedae..really do love gong gong alot and i'm sure i'm goanna miss him.. i know God had a plan and purpose for everything..He knows what He is doing. all i have to do is to trust Him..

feeling so isolated from all the teenz..really hope i can go for the stayover..

just need to get right with God..

Lord, help me..